20/10/14 I sent my boss a text saying I couldn’t supply
today. I just feel shattered and that Im getting behind with things. I need a
productive day of blogging, sewing and making some phone calls. Thats my
exciting life!
I went to see my nan and we had a quick trip to Heron. Not
got too many goodies from there in a while. Its always hit and miss in thise
places but 6 muller lights for £1 is always good. I haven’t had any good
babybell or light phili there for a while! Should of stocked up with 10 bags of
light babybells at that price! We had a nice little swimming sess though it
took me a while to convince my nan that it was best that we swam lengths like
everybody else was doing because we didn’t want to be those 2 people that
always go against the tide and make everybody stop and start. We didn’t swim
too long Nan was pretty worn out today. In our last few lengths we had to do
dodge round a fat Eddie Murphy who was stood still in the middle of the pool.
At first I thought he was just humming to himself but then when I swam past him
the second time I realised his eyes were shut and his whole chunky body was
jiggerly, his moobs bouncing on the water whilst he made a loud humming sound.
Good place for meditating, you never know what your going to see in a council
swimming pool.
Im going all contrivisional and trying a ‘tweak’ recipe
tonight. Im desperate for some garlic bread and saw a recipe using smash. I
made the smash up with exactly the amount of water it says. So to me thats not
a tweek? Ive made it as directed all Ive done afterwards is flatten it and
crisp it up in the oven with some garlic and a little bit of light cheese. I
don’t see how that is cheating. You can have normal potatoes boiled, baked, fried
but not smash?! Bog off tweak police!!
Sod treat them mean keep them keen! Thats ok when your 17
maybe even in your early 20s but as you hit 30 youve got to treat your man nice!
He dashed home from work so he could fix my wipers before it got too dark. He
worked for 10 hours then straight away spent 45 mins fixing my car. I ran him a big fat bubble bath
and made sure dinner would be ready for when he got out.
We nipped to do a quick cheap shop in tesco but they were
like vultures for the fruit! Crazy women! How many bags of oranges do you
really need?! We got a few bargains for the week, veggies and salad. Not bad. I
also picked up chocolate soya milk and weetabix which Ive been looking forward
to since L from class posted it last week. She said it tasted like chocolate
pudding! I wasn’t disappointed it was chocolatey and stodgy and a really good
winter supper. Will deffo be having this
again!!
21/10/14 Woke up to the rain hitting the window and the wind
whistling loudly. Once Mr D left me and the pooch snuggled up and dozed off to
Lorraine. I really didn’t know if to go to the gym or not I was very 50/50.
When I was dosing off I remembered this weks class was going to be partner work
at that point I put the duvet completly over my head and I emerged at 9.20
which was too late to go. I stayed in bed with my green tea and watched the
Biggest Loser. Thats got to be nearly as good as the gym? Well at least its
motivating! If I had a bra on I may of considered doing some star jumps.
Popped to Asda to get a few of the tins Ive seen on the
slimming website. I do spend a lot of time in supermarkets I think Im a bit
obsessed!
Ive started the bad habit of nipping into the nurses room
next to our office and weighing myself when its close to weigh in. I know its a
bad habit to get into but after my vodka binge I just needed to know that Ive
pulled it back enough. The scales are different but I think Ive worked it out
and Im pretty sure its going to be at least a pound loss. I must only allow
myself to do this once a week!! Theres a reason I don’t have scales at home!
As i was sitting at work with the team discussing targets I
got a text through telling me my Aunty had passed away. I texted my bro, my mum
and was about to text Mr D but had to put my phone away. I didn’t really feel
like talking about it or telling anyone at that point. How do you say my
Aunties dead? Tonight there was a few changes and I went to a Youth Club
tonight with some of he students. I was a little low and tired and the worse
thing happened. The one thing that could break me. Possibly my fave thing in
the world. Chip shop chips. It gets better. In a big fat slice of white bread
with butter. I could of ate a whole big bag to myself with a whole pile of
bread. The golden rule everything tastes better with bread. The second golden
rule everything tastes better with cheese. After queueing with my students
watching them get a plate and then watch them casually dunk a chip and pop into
their mouths so casually. I want to casually dunk chips and pop them in my
mouth. I want to shovel them in covered in salad cream. I gave in and ate 4
small ones. They were so good. I thought if I’d gave in to a couple I’d deffo
give in to more but I just had the 4. We went back to school and I was walking
down the coridoor when I saw one of the team mid much on a chip butty! The
staff had only got chip butties on the way home so I havnt just got to avoid
chips once but twice!! I will be strong, I will be strong, I will not give in
to chips!!
Tonight I am thinking of my Aunty Mags. She used to visit us
every Saturday morning and give each of a £1. Even if your mate was over they
would get a £1 too. She’d often take us in to town for breakfast. Me and my bro
always joked about the time we saw her casually put a whole sausage in her
mouth and eat it. Impressive. Dad used to tell us stories of how her gravy was
thicker than her mashed potatoe. I remember how she used to collect monkey teddys
and have loads of them all down her sofa. The main thing I remember is that she had a
heart of gold. Say hello to my dad for me.
22/10/14 Weigh in day! Off to work for a few hours then home
for a power nap. I had my yogurt for breakfast Im really getting bored of
muller bloody lights!! I don’t even like yogurt much but there free on slimming
world so I’ll have a muller bloody light for breakfast again! Of course I
didn’t have my power nap. I pottered round doing pots, making lunch and then I
got 20 minutes to watch a bit of homes under the hammer. Typical then I started
to doze off, well it was too late by then time for fat club! I felt okay
getting on the scales feeling sure I’d lost at least 1lb and I’d lost 2!!
Ooooshh 1 stone 2 lb in 6 weeks. Not too shabby!! The Leader today admitted
shes struggling and is now at the same weight she was when she started 6 weeks
ago. She was chatting about her weakness in sweets when we went on to talk
about whether people have treats after weigh in. The people that said they do
said they binge. This cant be healthy or any good mentally, bingeing,
dieting then bingeing. Im so glad I haven’t got into this. I save up my syns
and have a treat at the weekend. Bingeing on a Wednesday night is only going to
make it harder for me to then work it off and lose more the rest of the week.
One treat night once a week not bingeing and stuffing my face with every
naughty thing thats in sight. Were just all food aholics its like alcoholics
going to there alcoholics anonymous meeting then drinking a litre of whisky
afterwards. We need to tackle the
bingeing. I WILL NOT BINGE!!
23/10/14 Im starting to notice more that Im looking thinner.
1 stone 2 lb in 6 weeks and as I stand infront of the mirror in my pjs they are
looking pretty baggy. 6 weeks and Ive stuck to plan completly and syned
everything. Im not sure Ive ever been this good., maybe Im finally in the place
I need to be. Just pottered around the house this morning decided to dip dye my
hair just a bit lighter on the bottom.
Spent ages on it and by the time I washed it off you could hardly tell!
Waste of a morning. I made a cauliflower curry and then headed off to work.
That crushing feeling when you open your fave chocolate
brownie slimming world bar and a chocolate chip falls out! You get limited
chocolate chips and I want every single one! Now where did that chocolate chip
go??!
Is it bad to eat the same thing for dinner and supper? Both
pretty small portions of homemade chips, beans and a sprinkle of low fat
cheese? I eat at 4.15 at work but not a lot as im not always that hungry but
its the chance you get to eat. I guess as long as Im not stuffing myself its
okay? I’ll risk it for the one night but
wont do it regulary.
Just read a slimming world post saying if you put a piece of
apple on your chicken skewers that you have to syn it. Its not like your
stewing it? Or your eating more fruit because its shrunk when cooked its just a
couple of bloody slices of apple!!
24/10/14 PAY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I have only gone and
got my emergency tax back!! Big fat pay packet which will go straight in to my
savings! Its good in a way because I
probably wouldn’t of saved as much as that. Think Im going to book a extra
nights stay for Mr Ds birthday make the most of it and Ive seen something
bloody good. Arrhhh exciting!!! Who knows how quick babies will come along
after were hitched so have to completly make the most of every little holiday.
Cant wait to see his face.
Today i put on my skirt that I felt uncomftable in 3 weeks
ago. It felt fine, not snug, not big just fine. Im pretty pleased with that. If
I lose another 5 pounds I’ll be under the next stone mark and the weight I was
when I met Mr D. Once Ive smashed that it wil be the lighteset Ive been in
years just 5lb and Im at my next personal target! Im getting to make it under
that stone mark and I never want to see it ever again!!!
Theres times I don’t like talking. Friday mornings after Ive
not had much sleep is usually one of them. People probably think Im weird
sometimes being over chatty other times being quiet. I was happy the mini bus
man had a great playlist on and I happily hummed Maroon 5 at the back. This bus
man has good taste! Another day with people at work eating lots of cake! Today
we had to wear pink for breast cancer and they were selling cakes. My usual class
had lots coming in. I wasn’t going near that cakey goodness class or I would
just have to slip a little bit of lemony yumminess right in my mouth. Nope not going near that class!
Tonights night out was cancelled it would of been nice to be
a part of the send off but I really didn’t want to drink and I was shattered
anyway so i was secretly happy. There was only one thing i then had to think
about. Chip Shop chips!! Arr Ive thought about it all afternoon, I can not
remember the last time I ate my favourite food. Chip shop chips! It says 17
syns for a regular portion and 5 syns for chicken kebab meat. I posted on the
slimming world website and it was a good job I did. 17 syns is a handful of
chips a cone not a regular portion at all and that I should weigh them out. I figured if I used 2 days worth of syns it
would be well worth it! I already had my onesie on ready so Mr D went out to
get the take away. When it arrived I was straight into it trying some meat, a
few chips there was no way I wasn’t going to eat my whole big fat portion! The
whole smell filled the room. I put the portion on the scales and then ate nearly
double the amount. The chicken portion looked pretty good to. I added my weight
watcher healthy B pitta bread and had a big pile of salad, some chilli sauce and a
big table spoon of quork to save using any more syns. I ate every last bit and
it was amazing!! I counted it as 45 syns which is a lot for one night but worth
it. I posted it on my page and got the comment ‘you know you cant save your
syns’ Well actually it says on the Slimming World website that you can some
consultants just advise against it to not encourage people to binge. I have
fancied chips all week and not gave in! Ive not binged after Ive been weighed
Ive done it the right way and I saved my bloody syns! So give me a bloody break
here!!
25/10/14 I woke feeling guilty about last nights eating.
What if she was right what if theres a reason I shouldn’t save up my syns?
Thats it Im going to eat lots of veggies for the rest of the week. I really
hope this doesn’t effect my weeks weight loss . What if I didn’t syn it enough?
Right low syns for the rest of the week! It was a lovely autum morning I put
some old school Maroon on ‘Songs about Jane’ one of my top 5 fave albumns and
took a brisk walk into town for my hair cut.
My hair cut was good I really like this place. Only went
there last time with a groupon voucher and the young girl did a really good
job. Cant moan at £24 either. We took a drive to Leicester with Mr D and his
mum to pick up a new mobility car for his family and then went home for lunch.
I like to cook nice lunches at the weekend. Make more effort. I decided to try
a KFC style recipe. Chopped up turkey breast, dunked it in egg then in
breadcomes mixed with some spices and baked it in the oven. We had with rice
and salad and little tub of beans to dunk. Next time I’ll use chicken, turkey
just isn’t the same and do it with chips so it really is like KFC. Not bad for
first time.
Popped in to my mums for a cuppa and then my bro, sister in
law and neice show up which was nice because not seen any of them properly for
a few weeks. Mum tells me in the kitchen we are going to Cherry Tree for
Christmas eve. Every year we all go to mums house for Christmas Eve, we play
stupid games, eat chocolate trifle, give each other rude presents and dress up
ridiculously. About a month ago mum says to me our house is too small now
theres another baby. (though we are down 2 adults this year as my step brother
is in Canada?!) She said we could go to a pub. I said well why don’t we have it
at mine then as weve got more room. She said ‘Thats a good idea, I’ll speak to
the others'. Ive heard nothing since. So I asked her what about me offering to
have it at mine. She then started shouting at me and saying I always want it my
way. I was trying to explain to her that she never told me any of this but she
wouldn’t listen. I tried to walk out but my neice wouldn’t give me back the
front door key to my house. I stayed and stayed out of mums way for the next
half an hour. What I was trying to say is wouldn’t it have been nice to let me
know that people didn’t want it at ours instead of ignoring the offer. Is that
her or everybodies? Wouldnt it of been polite to tell us of just ignoring it
and then I get accused of being selfish and wanting things my way when actually
I was trying explain. I may of calmed down a bit and gave her a half hearted
hug when leaving but if Im being accused of that then why would I want to go?
Me and Mr D don’t want to go to cherry tree. The food thats is good is the roast.
Do you want a roast dinner the night before Christmas dinner. No. If thats
being selfish then maybe I am.
Got home and had a bath tried to get in the zone of having a
lovely night out with the Mr. Thought we’d go out for some nice food first and
after using so many of my syns on take away last night I said I was happy for
him to pick anywhere where I could have steak. He fancied a nice pint of ale
and we wanted somewhere with a good Saturday night atmosphere. Alot of the good
places already booked up but we got in the Greyhound one of our fave pubs in
Derby. Not ate there for a while but I’d had steak there in the past. Mr D was
happy with his nice pint and we had a look through the menu. Everything was
with chips. There was a salad with cous,cous. I don’t like cous, cous and Im
not coming out on a Friday night to eat just a salad. I fancied the steak and
thought I’d ask if I could have it with boiled or jacket potatoe as its
normally not a problem. (normally places offer a healthy choice on the menu!)
the girl said she’d ask the chef. She came back and said the chef said no it
costs more. Mr D said ‘were happy to pay more. I was ordering the most
expensive thing on the menu here! She kind of mumbled and said no. We cancelled
Mr Ds order nobody tried to offer us any kind of alternative. Rude and useless!
Mr D was fuming that they could of just boiled a bloody potatoe!! Well ‘The
Greyhound, Derby’you have lost £50 custom tonight and in the future. You can
kiss my fat ass as I walk out the door!!
We weren’t sure where to go next. The good pub grub places
would be booked up but with going to the cinema I said what about TGI Fridays
they will do a good steak surely?! So thats where we went and it had the
perfect Saturday night atmosphere. There were plenty of choices on the menu and
i decided on chicken breast on peppers and onions that came with cheesy mash
and would ask for a swap. Guess what, they couldn’t bloody swap it!!! She said
the cheesy mash was part of the layering of it? What the fuck? Can rice not be
in the layer instead? Back to the drawing board! I picked steak with rice and
salad and a prawn skewer with no dressings. She was helpful and told me the
diet coke with unlimited whoop! Finally getting somewhere. We waited a loooong
time. (good job we wernt in a rush) when a young waiter came over to us and
said ‘Im really sorry guys you’ll have to wait 5 more minutes as I just dropped
your order. I will give you free puddings on the house!’ We were happy about that, he was honest.
Would of been happier if we’d got free drinks as I couldn’t have pudding and Mr
D doesn’t really like pudding but oh well! The order came and they gave Mr D
normal chips instead of cheesey bacon chips (I know mmm cheesey bacon chips, if
only!!) They quickly arrived with a portion of cheesey bacon chips and said
they were on the house! Bonus he got to lots of chips and half of them on the
house!! Good times indeed. Popped in rather a filthy Ryans bar for another diet
coke and then off to the pics to see ‘Maze Runner’ there wasn’t much on so this
was the only thing neither of us minded watching. I had my pudding of chocolate
hifi bars and happily watched the film. It was no Divergent and Divergent aint
no Hunger Games but it wasn’t bad!!
26/10/14 So the clocks have gone back and should totally be
making the most of my extra hour but its wasted on me I cant stay in bed. I
left Mr D snoozing put the washing out and put the gammon roast joint in the
slow cooker (I thought it was pork, I don’t like gamon!!) I cooked a chicken breast for me instead. Had a chilled out day and my bro, sister in law and neice over for dinner.
Mr D is seriously the best man ever. When I was getting
stressed tring to serve up a roast for everyone and there were toddlers, adults
and dogs flying in and out of the kitchen and the smoke dectetctaor going over.
Mr D gave me a quick hug, put one of my fave albumns on the juke box and put me
mushy peas in (even though I said not to worry as I couldn’t be bothered) so I
could have them instead of gravy. Its all about the little things.
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