03/09/14- 6.15am Mr Ds alarm went off. He then has another 2
go off over the next 40 mins! It doesn’t matter that I do not need to be awake
at 6.15 and I can never just doze straight off like he does ugh!! First day
back to work and even though I knew I’d feel fine I felt a bit apprehensive on
the way. I was fine once I was there!!
Food Hygiene training ugh. Last time I did this it was online and lasted 20 minutes. Yes I did fail that first time but does it really
need to be a whole day?! Longggg boring day which I sat fidgeting, drinking fruit tea and doodling in my book.
Really didn’t want to go the gym. Mr D was back early and we
were just chilling having a snuggle. I went to the bathroom and caught my
reflection in the mirror of me in my my knickers and vest and thought I really
should go to the gym but then sat back on my bed. Mr D then walked in from the
shower looking good and I thought I really need to go to the gym. Still sat on
the bed. An advert came on where Julia Roberts looked amazing in a tight figure
hugging dress and shes like 50 or something?! I got off my fat ass and got my
gym gear on! I always dread doing exercise when Ive not done it for a bit but
if your going to do it might as well go straight in to the hardcore and go to
Insanity! My cousin C came to Insanity tonight shes got through some trials
with the police and is trying to up her fitness levels. She alot thinner than
me but were a similar shape. Think most of us ladies are a similar shape on my
mums side. I like to call it the two bellies! Yove either got a shape that you
have one roundish belly or your bellies kind of separate in to 2. So youve got
your middle and then your tyre if your a fat bastard like me! Luckily I don’t
have any more tyres but that is more than plenty! Luckily were also blessed
with ample busom. All fat birds should be blessed with that its the least we
can have! Fat birds with no boobs really have got a rough ride, thats just bloody
unfair!! The class went well. C seemed
to struggle on the same bits as me. The upper body stuff where you have to do
walking press ups and one handed burpees! Seriously how many people can do one
handed burpees?? At the end of one of the sections there was a high knees jog.
Mine wasn’t very high kneed until I spotted the girl next to me fully going
for! I thought this skinny bird aint going to out jog me so I stepped up my
game!
05/09/14 I procrastinated as much as possible this morning
before going to my first aid class. 30 minutes before I was due to start I was
still sat at home with my feet up eating raspberries, blueberries, yogurt and
granola for breakfast. Must look into
getting some healthier gronala as this Jacobs one seems quite high in calories.Whats
even in it? Can I make it myself? I need to look into that pintrest thing im sure
that would tell me but im shocking with technology. Cant work it out!
As I walked in I saw the 2 night staff that I know a little
bit from work. It was at a Primary School down the road and we walked in to a
school hall with 60 staff all sat in a circle staring at us wondering who the
hell we were. I was glad 2 I at least knew these 2 abit. Ive done first aid
courses so many times ! Adolencent ones, the full 4 day sha bang so from the
word go I wasnt really interested and started day dreaming. I reckon I could
easily work out who was who in this room. There was clearly the dinner lady
corner. Crude, giggerly and the ones shouting out and laughing the loudest.
The teaching assistants who just look like poorer versions of the teachers. The
admin staff, A few young apprentices and the serious looking pencil skirted
lady at the end . Then I was trying to
work out the teachers. There there was the obvious looking PE teacher in Sports
Gear, The geeky looking but serious science teacher. The guy with the pony
tail, the grubby looking converse and asked the strange questions could be the
art teacher. The young smart but still modern lady must teach the little ones. Im
not sure what the young tattooed guy with his v neck nealy down to his belly
button was, he looks like hes a boyband
reject could be a dance teacher?but it did remind me I needed to book tickets for the Big
Reunion so texted the girls to see if they fancied it. Which reminded I wanted
to see Lady Gaga so I texted Mr D and told him. I then thought about how I
wanted a Lady Gaga themed birthday and then thought about what themes I would
look for my hen do. I then started doodling my Halloween costume. As well as
all this I did a bit of resuscitation and patted people on the back if they were
pretending to choke. We were next to the dinner ladies who were making jokes
about our Micheal Jackson Style resuscitation dummy and pretending to breast feed
the baby resuscitation doll. The 2 instructers also thought they were funny. They
were that unfunny they were funny. They looked the same both with grey bowl
cuts, bad black comfy shoes and square glasses. They were like the Chuckle
brothers apart from the male of the 2 kept lurking behind a attractive young
girl and kept trying to get her to volunteer. She kept slipping in the odd
slightly filthy joke including one about wrapping someone up in a bandage but change the 'a' in bandage to an 'o'. The whole thing was badddd but I sat there in my own little word amused
by everybody around me and making plans for the months ahead. I spent the
afternoon planning a weekend away next week and managed to get a really good
deal on groupon. I am not willing to accept summer is over and the weather lady
keeps saying its going to be a nice few weeks. It wasn’t a easy task as I
needed a cheap weekend away not too far for 4 adults, a toddler and 2 dogs! I
succeeded and got a cottage for 2 nights for £100 for all of us in the
beautiful Yorkshire countryside!! Boom £25 each.
Off home for the Bessie coming over. Good to have a catch up
and a good natter. Cooked a one pot number. Sausages, roasted veggies, sweet
poatoe in a mustardy dressing. We talked bridesmaids, babies and hen nights.
Pretty much covers everything.
05/09/14- In a new class today. Ive been in there a couple
of times but its nice to know which class im going to be in for the year plus
they have new kids so we can start a fresh together! Its harder to come in when
the kids are very attached to the staff. The staff are really nice and were
discussing my favourite subjects very early on. Weddings and diets! Boom I’ll
be fine here! One lady gets married 2 days before me shes lost 4 and a half
stone and bought her dress! Shes on slimming world and told me how great it is
like the rest of the world! That you can lose weight eating as much pasta/rice
and potatoes as you like!? For the whole of this year I thought this cant be
right. Ive had clean eating is the only
way to lose weight. Exercise and eat
healthy. Well Ive done plenty of that and just end up going round and round in
circles everytime I have a weekend away. Well fuck it if I really want to lose
weight for my wedding I cant do this alone anymore. Time to try something new!
Stuff my face with carbs and lose weight? I’m in!! When can I join??
Theres a few morning Slimming World classes and I’m going to join next
week. I know I will be joining just before our weekend away but the more I put
it off the more I’ll just eat and think of excuses so next week I am starting
this! Ive had a nose and done some research and it is basically really limiting
fats. Limited butter, oils and creamy things. I actually think i might be able
to do this at work! I’m totally going to do this. Right I am not going to do that
thing where I eat filthy up until I start my diet. I’m not going to do it, I’m
not going to do it!
Cherry Tree for mums birthday dinner! I’m going to be good,
I’m going to be good. I’ll just have a couple of crispy roast potatoes, and a
little bit of chessey and mash and a Yorkshire pud! Oops plenty of veg on there
too! Felt like a fat bastrad afterwards so had to wash it down with a few white
wine spritzers. There was a table next to me with a few average sized folk and
a couple of slightly over weight. Not as fat as me and they’d gone for the mega
carvery plate. It was disgusting a huge plate with a mountain of food on! 4
yorkshire puddings pilled amougnst mounds of mash. It was ridiculous like
something off man vs food. How do they do that? How do they put all that away
and not be incredibly fat?? Everybody ordered cake away to share. Though I
wasn’t hungry at that point I fancied something chocolatey and peanutty but Mr D
chose a lemon drizzle cake. As I got up to walk out I realised how bloated I
was. I was wearing a red maxi dress clinging on to summer and I honestly looked
pregnant. My middle was round. That is awful. I look fucking pregnant!! I tried
to hide it with my bag, breathed in and scuttled off to the car sulking. I got
home to see the dog had ripped the middle of the brand new duvet and duvet
cover on the spare bed I’d bought just days ago! I was so mad! Stuffing from
the duvet everywhere! The good times are over pooch you can sleep in your own
bed in the kitchen!! ‘No I don’t want any lemon drizzle cake, I wanted chocolate
peanut!’ ‘Okay I’ll just finish it off for you’ ugh off to bed. Fat not
pregnant!
06/09/14 Mr D was working this morning so had the morning to
myself. I then remembered that he had taken my car in to fix the squirters so I
decided to do some painting. I painted the boring looking small pine wardrobe
Mr D bought with him and put in the spare room when he moved in. Its so nice to
no longer have a lodger as we can completly spread out now. I decided to be
frugal and went in the shed and dug out a very light green paint and added some
blue to make a duck egg colour. I must admit I did a pretty good job. Sometimes
i’m quite happy to potter round by myself. Mr D was feeling pretty worn out and I was
still not feeling great so we spent sometime chilling. I popped out to get my
hair done as Ive recently got in touch with a girl who used to do my hair in
college. She was a student and practising, that was 10 years ago. We used to
chat about our second hand handbags before it was ‘vintage’ and ‘cool’. It was
a vintage fair and she was doing hair put ups for a tenner. I know I was only
going to a house party but any excuse to have cute hair! She did it in about 10
minutes she was so quick and very good. If anyones looking for vintage hair I
recommend her ‘Necias Hair’ look her up! (Shame ive already booked my wedding
hair)We then went out to my cousins birthday party. I had a bottle of
amerreto with me as I know I deffo wont be allowed that on any diet I start so
might as well enjoy the lovely bakwell tart in a glass before I begin. It was
quite a family event and even though we’d eaten before we came out we found
ourselves grazing on sausage rolls and chicken goujons. A drink was spilt on
the table and fully coated my tights and even went in my shoes. Mr D got a splash
too but I spent the night with my tights stuck to my legs. The comment made was
‘If you were in a night club it would be worse than that.' Good job I wasn’t
then! It was a nice evening and everyone seemed to be quite merry. I wasn’t
really that drunk probably because Amerreto might taste amazing but is only about 10%
alcohol! I went to bed with a shower cap on to try and have my beautiful 50s
hair for another day.
07/09/14 Woke up with a very sweaty head. I’m not sure
sleeping in quite a thick shower cap is the best thing to do though my hair
wasn’t looking to bad! We enjoyed peanut butter on toast for breakfast and then
took the pooch for a walk. We went to his favourite spot in all the trees and
he ran around like a mad head. I do love a nice Sunday dog stroll with Mr D. We
were hoping to go and visit Mr Ds parents but his dad was working so we went to
my cousins for a lunchtime BBQ. She had a BBQ the next day so the oldies could
come to this one and invited the rest of us too. They’d never done a BBQ before
so we had to be patient waiting for the dessposable BBQ on the floor but she’d
made some good potatoe salad and coleslaw and I love good coleslaw. After we
were all full a load more meat came out half an hour later so i did squeeze in
a couple of koftas and one of my burgers I bought I’d been waiting for. I let
my Uncle Smithy have the burnt one that came out first! I spent most of the
time grilling my Aunty about Slimming World. Shes been doing it a long time but
is at goal but she still goes otherwise she’ll put it back on. My nans been
doing it for a while and I asked her how many syns were in the large white cob
with thick butter and 2 cheese slices was and she said she wsnt sure
‘about 4’ I haven’t started yet but I’m
pretty sure that is quite a few more than 4. My nans been doing slimming clubs
for as long as I can remember but I think she does them more as a social
gathering. To be fair though she has lost about a stone recently but I’m pretty
sure she doesn’t have much of a clue about the diet! The conversation turned to
ice bucket challenges ‘rolls eyes’ and it wasn’t just about donating it was
about the awareness. I said I hadn’t seen anything on what the charity was for
other than a text number. I asked ‘what is it raising awareness for?’ the reply
i got was ‘Some cancer charity’. I rest my case.
We then went to Asda with my big list of things to buy ready
for the diet! Mr D has been fabulously supportive and hasn’t moaned at all
about me going on and on about Slimming World. The only way I can give it my
all is if I’m completly organised and obsess about it! We got home and chilled
out. I tried to use up anything we still had in the freezer that wouldn’t be
allowed on the new diet so by 8pm we were hungry and we had a nice simple
dinner of pasty, cheesey mash and baked beans. I do love a good pastry.
08/09/14 Monday morning again but I was pretty sure I
wouldn’t get called up for supply as its the first Monday back. Who will call
in sick on the first Monday back? I didn’t get called up but because of that
I’d never made any plans. I decided to treat myself and stay in bed after 8am
this is rare for me. I picked up my mum and we went for a potter around Asda.
We’d gone with work last week and I’d seen some really good priced outdoor
paint. It was all gone, the bargains were pretty rubbish most of the sale stuff
had gone so was a bit of a wasted journey. We went to B and M and I stashed up
on my diet coke before dropping mum off home. I didn’t eat lunch I just grazed
on crisps, bread and anything knocking about.
I stood infront of Mr D and told him ‘this is the last time
your going to see me this fat’
09/09/14 Enjoyed my last bit of thick white toast for
breakfast and got ready to go to Slimming World. I didn’t feel nervous just
wanted to get this first weigh in and what will be a horrible result on the
scales out of the way and behind me. Its annoying that there is a class right
at the end of my road but this class is Wednesday evenings like a lot of the
classes so I had to travel right near where I have to work. I arrived and
everywhere seemed locked up. I read the sign and it said ‘Thursday mornings at
9.15am’ Bloody hell! I got the wrong day! Annoyed with myself I headed back
home. Why do I never read things properly?! I decided to change my plan a bit
and go to a class Wednesdays when I’m on
my split shift. Right tomorrow is the day I start! Tomorrow is my fresh start! I
joked to my friend well at least its another day I can eat what i want but to
be honest I wasn’t that bothered. I didn’t eat properly for the rest of the day
I just grazed. After days of just letting myself have what I want I don’t want it
anymore. I had training in the afternoon and enjoyed a snickers bar I’m sure
they would be loads of syns on slimming world.My boss laughed when I said I’m
treating myself to some chocolate before my diet starts tomorrow and she said
she always does the same thing. Does everyone have a crazy treat few days
before starting a new diet? I was actually quite happy to get back to doing my
shifts at work. It was good to see the kids. I feel like Ive forgetton
everything after having the summer off! Its like a fresh start again with
different kids and in new classes. I do feel settled in this school which is
nice. Unfortuantley the food was no better for pudding it looked like some chocolatey
goodness but was actually jelly topped with chocolate angel delight. Ugh not so
good. I was supposed to finish at 10pm tonight and was going to have the
ultimate last treat for my supper. Walkers cheese and onion crisp butty! But I
got to finish early so just ate the crisps on the way home I didn’t want to
take them home and have to share them with Mr D. Its always nice to get back
from a late to Mr D just not shar my crisps with him.
Tomorow I will make big changes! I will join Slimming world and finally be thin!!!
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